Monday, September 21, 2009

Yes, I'm Still Here

It's been a little while since my last post. It seems I have run into some other health issues that have kept me from keeping up with regularity on my blog. I have missed writing and posting pictures and hearing from some of you by way of your lovely comments. I don't want to bore you with the many symptoms that I have been having so I will try to make this VERY LONG story as short as I possibly can. A couple of months ago, I had the amalgam fillings removed from the left side of my mouth. Since then, I have been having some pretty serious complications...things like muscle weakness, partial paralysis, sleepy all the time, itching all over my body, but no rash, dizziness, etc. Right now I am being sent to a specialist and will go through a series of tests to try and rule out this and that. I feel that this is a direct result of the mercury...however, I am open to the fact that it could very well be something else and am therefore, going to follow the doctor's protocol concerning my symptoms. Today has been a good day. I have had a little more good than bad lately and for that I am grateful to God. It is a frustrating place to be. When the labs start coming back fine...then you get "that look" know that one that says, "Well, we know your husband is deployed, you have five children, you are you handling all of that?" I used to get the same thing about my migraines that I had for about 12 years until I found a chiropractor who got my atlas back in line...and then you know what? NO MORE MIGRAINES!!! Now, I am in no way discounting the effects of stress. It can make all things seem worse. But, just because conventional medicine can't find the "answers" doesn't mean it is stress. So, I am praying and waiting on God. It has been especially hard to go through this without dh here. But, through it all, God is showing me in a real and tangible way that I am truly never alone. He is always with me. He knows my body better than even I do. And I am waiting on Him to direct me in the next step I should take concerning these problems. It is amazing how many things we take for granted isn't it? You don't realize how blessed you are physically until your health is stripped from you. You don't always appreciate those you love like you should until you are apart. And unfortunately, we don't always understand the goodness of God until we walk through valleys. He continues to show me His whisper to me of His care, His love, His never-ending faithfulness. And today, even though I am not well, I am thankful. And that, my friends is a good place to be.

Here are some recent pictures of my blessings. May you have a great day in Jesus!

My first born son...a lover of all things history!!!

My middle child...the one whose picture is beside the word determined in the first grade this year and already reading Little House on the Prairie!

First born daughter...right hand girl...crafty lady...wearing the first skirt she sewed.

Baby girl...what a ham!...loves to perform...and my little cuddle bunny!

Second son...cutie pie...melt your heart smile...normal volume of voice ~ HIGH


Lois said...

I've missed you and am glad you're back! I will be praying for your health issues. I always thought that health is the great equalizer of rank and station (pardon the military pun there.) Rich, poor, believer, lost, and often you don't know how bad you've been feeling until you feel well again. I had a dear friend and sister in Christ who was physically disabled to the point of not being able to even feed herself, and yet Christ in her was what everybody saw. I truly pray that He will fill you with grace and mercy to bloom right where you are.

His bondservant said...

Thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement. It is truly my desire that through this Christ will be glorified. After all, He is the Potter and it is His choice to do whatever He chooses with this lump of clay. Thank you too for your prayers.

JTNCM Young said...

Praying for you, your precious children, and your dear husband.