Slipping out of bed this morning at 5:45 am for my devotional in a very quiet house was a special treat. It has been a while since I have felt rested enough to get up at that time. God is good. My health has been up and down for several years now…I will feel better for a while…then take a nosedive again. I have tried this cure and that cure, but nothing lasting. I have been tested for most things under the sun, nothing conclusive. I have prayed and prayed, and the Lord has given me healthier moments, but nothing lasting. What does a Christian do with this?
I have been angry, hurt, depressed and numb over it all. I have compared myself with others and asked God for a reason. I have searched scripture, confessed sin and at times, given up. And then the thought came to me…what if this is all there is? What if this is what God has ordained in my life? Does He cease being a loving Father, an all-wise God, my salvation, my Jehovah-Rapha?
No, God is still God. He is still good. He still loves me and is working all things, even this, for my good. Do I desire healing? Yes, absolutely. But, He has brought me to the point that I desire holiness more. So now, instead of praying constantly for a miracle of health, I now pray for a miracle of righteousness. Lord, make me holy. Lord, if this is what it takes to accomplish that, then it will be worth it.
Do I truly believe that I am the bondservant of God? Because if I do, that means every area in my life…even my health. So, for today, I thank God for this moment of energy and I realize the preciousness of it. It is truly a gift…undeserved, special, relished. It is the hand of a God who gives to me what I do not deserve, and I am thankful. May these moments never be taken for granted, but I pray point me instead to the heart of my Father. May you also thank God for the gifts He has given you today. Oh, how much we take for granted. Stop for just a moment today and thank God for all His gifts. Today is all we are promised. And may you have sweet fellowship with Him!